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Dear Rebound Guy,

It’s been a while since we last talked. I haven’t had the chance to tell you how sorry I am for what had happened between us but I want you to know that you are not at all taken for granted.

When we started seeing each other, you already know what I have been going through. You already know that I have been holding on to something that does not exist, and so you helped me forget about it and continue with my life.

Being the rebound guy does not always have a happy ending. For some people, yes, they ended up marrying each other because all the love that was supposed to be given to the ex was given to you but we also have to remember that it is not always the case.

Although rebounds help people forget about their exes and move on, it can also lead them to realize that they love their exes so much that no person can replace them. A rebound is all good for broken hearts when the guy has most, if not all, passed the other person’s standards. If you know how far you are, or how far he is as a person from you, then you must know what to do.

I know you have always told me that my ex is far better off as a person compared to you but you are more than willing to take the risk – that you are willing to take the challenge of making your dream girl fall in love with you. But, I am an adult. An adult who no longer believes in the “you and me against the world” quote.

You have made a lot of special things for me, but I failed to appreciate everything because my attention is somewhere else. While you are waiting for me to call you, while you are waiting for me to come home, I was out drinking beers with the thought that I am not happy with what I have been doing. I know and I am aware that you have tried to be with me, to do everything just to be with me and it was me who resisted all your efforts. It is not because I didn’t want to see you. It is because I know how limited your capabilities are in spite of having the drive to see me and I don’t want you to cross that line simply because I know that I am not worth it. Because I know that I am not in love with you.

I cannot really say that I no longer love my ex but I cannot also say that I am in love with you. I am sorry if we ended up like this but I am thankful that through your help, I realized that I am not that person who would choose to be in a relationship in spite of knowing that it will lead nowhere. I wanted to be the truest version of myself to you; because you deserve it, because I failed to love you, because that is the only thing that I can give you. And with that, I want to say thank you. Thank you for staying by my side when I was at my worst. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for seeing that beauty in me which I myself failed to see. Thank you for making me feel appreciated.

I didn’t want to talk to you. I didn’t want to show you that I appreciated your efforts simply because I am afraid it might send wrong signals. I have to stay away from you because I can see that I am beginning to destroy you and I can’t afford to see you like that because of me, because of my selfishness.

I want you to move on. I want you to stop loving me. I want you to stop hoping that there will be “us”. I want you to become the person that you once were before you met me. Maybe for now, you’ll hate me for hurting you. I tried to forget him. I tried to like you. I honestly did.

I am sorry but to tell you honestly, I can’t see my future with you in it.

Sincerely,
Claire

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